What Remained in an old fabric phantomed by grim memories.
Skull artwork by Kpavio.
We hide secrets. We have secrets inside, deep in ourselves; maybe it’s a thought, maybe it’s a moment, a dream, a desire… It’s so immersed inside that sometimes we don’t even realize it’s there. The mind is complex, the heart is complex, and in between lie time and memories carried by our being. Only we lighten our memories by thinking them, dreaming them, sharing them. The light of these moments irradiates through our surroundings, our conversations, our laughs, our gatherings with friends...
But this soft blueish light is shy and frosty. It’s a light that dies before it could cross the thick darkness that surrounds some of our feelings and thoughts; not even the smallest glimmer could escape.
Humans, each and everyone. We incarnate our biological pattern, our nature is adjusted and altered by the contact of society and the environment. Like ADN, we conserve the mark that records our path.
Every mark is different: we share feelings and sensations, but that doesn’t mean that we are the same way. We have the same mechanism but we don’t fabricate the same fabric. That’s why everyone is unique inside this shared psychological and physiological similarity.
Dissimilarities are far more valuable. They’re the way in which we assimilate every moment and how they mold us. It’s the way in which we fight or perhaps not fight for our big little secret, our “I” that only oneself can appreciate with one’s own viewpoint. There are some who hold it with strength, others in a more gentle way, and others simply carry it on their backs with rejection.
These are ten surreal portraits of beings personifying their own secret. All the represented individuals of this project are characterized by their facial trait, the mark: they are similar in texture and color, but not in shape. The shape expresses the authenticity of every person inside the biological affinity that we share.
We are similar but we are unique. No one will ever be able to totally discern how we are. We all share this collective discretion. This Unknown Light that we will never expose to the real world, that will die with us.
Even though I am getting into a very generic and tedious subject, it always strikes me how similar we are in the very basic roots of human nature.
This photography project is an attempt to visually translate my curiosity, my illusory idea of how we link. I have always been interested in learning and understanding other personalities. But at the same time, I know that I will never be able to grasp the completeness of a person since, as I mentioned before, I believe we all keep personal thoughts, dreams, desires, memories, etc.
On the other hand, I believe there is always an organic linkage that subconsciously connects all of us. And that’s exactly the main point of this series.
I chose subjects from completely different backgrounds who volunteered to participate and I photographed them in the same way. The most crucial moment was when I told them to hold the little prop light and try different poses. During this moment is when I noticed repetition of similar reactions, “what do I do now with this?” I directed them slightly, but most of the time I let them act freely and play with it, asking them to give me different expressions and weird poses until they found themselves comfortable. I never explained to the models the complete purpose of the photo shoot because I wanted to capture that natural confusion and adaptedness. This allowed me to capture a personal and unique look for each one.
The result are eleven photos that reiterate the idea of how different but similar we are at the same time.
Recurring Dream is a representation of how one views himself in his own dream. Composition, place and subject matter make no sense and are not supposed to be illustrated in any objective manner. The only important element is the idea of the self, of the individual that appears in different locations and the fact that time is irrelevant. The individual seems to be looking for something while at the same time he feels lost, he has no purpose.
My intention is to capture the occurrence of the so-called “recurring dreams” and compact this experience in a single moment. Despite the lack of time-space rationale, there is a hint of chronological order in the placement of the first and last pictures. Both of them are positioned in the extremes of the piece (right and left) because they are supposed to portray the same moment within a separation of a split second. Then, the middle of the “story”, of the “dream”, the “sense of irrationality”, is illustrated by the intermingled pictures of the board. This is the reason why the size, angle and placement of the photos are asymmetrical and random; just like our casual daily thoughts, like the flow of the brain.
Regarding the technical composition, there are some pictures that have a weird focal point because it is supposed to represent the recurring confusion of the dream. In addition to that, I decided to experiment with the night lights (since we usually dream and sleep during night time) and try to contrast its blackness with the soft-vibrant tones of the artificial lights. This type of lights are the “artificial-illusory” side of the dream. In the other side, the landscape and the subject, him, are the reality side.
Unawakened portrays in a literal sense what the title implies: someone who never woke up or perhaps still needs to wake up. Similar to a state of coma, these series illustrates a bed sheet shaped by a human. It is a dream, perhaps a nightmare, but the person is trapped in its own mind.
Jessica has been a healthcare provider specialized in pulmonary hypertension (PH) for almost 20 years. The disease is a high blood pressure in the lungs that ultimately leads to heart failure and death. The prognosis is worse than lung cancer or ovarian cancer. There is no cure. It tends to affect younger women although it is still a rare disease.
Jessica decided to climb the Mount Rainier in June as a fundraiser and awareness event for PH. The low oxygen in high-altitude causes temporary PH that will go away when one returns to sea level. Therefore, she gave herself the same disease that Julia had, PH. Julia is patient of Jessica and this is how they became close friends. Jessica was paired with Julia for the "Let Me Be Your Lungs" event, where she represented her on the climb.
Jessica: “Julia has a resolve unlike any I have ever seen. She has raised over $100,000 for PH research, and she faces her disease with class and bravery. I always call her a warrior. One day, we were on Facebook declaring that each other was the bigger warrior. That is where the idea of photographing ourselves with warrior paint together was born…."
Nowhere pictures a dead state of mind. It's intended to represent the brief moment whenever we "space out".
Unseen represents the subconscious state of evasion that results physical avoidance among the quotidian day. Therefore, it is pictured in the real world that we know but it is consequently deformed by the feeling of impotence and self-consumption.
A possible representation of Ambition.
Skull artwork by Kpavio.
A portion of being in Love.
Alternative surreal representation of the word s.i.c.k.
Autumn holding Time.
He walks, He waits.
Waiting for Winter.
Chemistry between Sisters.
Sandusky House in a quiet afternoon.
A walk around Brooklyn bridge.
Memories of Teenage Afternoons.
Ruins of War captures the deadly ruins of a bombarded city.
Skull artwork by Kpavio.
The Eerie Dressing Room is an unexpectedly quiet changing room located two floors down under a busy gym. You only hear the muffled sound of the weights hitting the floor and the voltaic noise of the fluorescent lights.
Slowly waking up on a Sunday morning.